The trap

I know I’m not the center of the Universe, but you keep spinning ’round me just the same…

I found myself wandering the streets aimlessly, thinking about what I have, what I lost and how far I’ve gone. I can’t explain why I don’t want to talk to him or why I’m dodging every call, text. I found that it started out rather innocently… I convinced myself that I’m no ghosting people, I’m just removing people who don’t care about me, who don’t deserve me…

I swear it started out innocently, but has escalated into something I can hardly control. I’m fooling myself into thinking that if I just let go, I’d be set free. I convinced myself that I’m trapped, every relationship, no matter what kind, it’s a trap, it chains me to reality and it makes meĀ feel things and I don’t want that. I don’t want to feel anything, most of the times.

The stupid things is that I am trapped, but not in any relationship, I’m trapped inside my mind.

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